I've been having a bit of time to think on life, the universe, and all of existence...42 minutes of it to be exact. (the sad part is that's not the meme, that's actually about how much time I spent pondering this topic) And in that brief moment of meditation I made a few realizations.
The first and biggest one is that I had no clue a year ago where I'd be today. On December 1st 2010 I officially came out of the closet about wanting a gender change, now just over a year later I'm still not on proper hormones yet because of financial problems, but even without them I've been enjoying myself and living reasonably well.
When I came out and when I stopped being Daniel and started being Tanya I had to change nearly everyone I associated with because of how many had negative, unkind, or in some rare cases, violent reactions. A year hence I'm unemployed, taking care of my sick mother, and trying my best to not let my relationship with my boyfriend crumble.
But, despite all that, I wouldn't change a single thing. I'd leave it all like it is if I could go back because I know I'm stronger for it. All of those pains I've gone through and I'm still going through have made me a much more durable person.
This post is for all of my LBGT friends. It's a damned tough road for a transgender, but I want to tell you all this right now; Whether you're M -> F or F -> M or one of the very few who's a hermaphrodite. I want you to know that that pain, that suffering, that hell you go through to stand up and be who you are, that's what historians will remember about you. Through history, it's always the oppressed who are remembered, and those who stood up against oppression and said NO.
I'm not gonna say you should rub it in people's faces, because that's sinking to their level. What I'm saying is you should stand up and be proud. You should keep going no matter what. If somebody says harsh words, grin right in their scowling face. If somebody says "You'll never make it." give them a smirk and reply, "Watch me."
Just remember this, those who don't understand, those who don't appreciate your struggle, they're humans too. We all are. If you're atheist, and they say you're going to hell and they're going to heaven, just smile and nod, you know they'll be proven wrong. If you're religious, and they say you're a horrible person for being gay, just smile and nod, you know they'll be called on their hatred and ignorance once they reach the other side. Death is the final decision maker for all of us, no matter what we believe or don't believe in, so let him deal with taking care of those annoyances, you'll just stress yourself out by raging back at them. And those who stress, and yell, and rage; Those who view the world through hate filled eyes, they're far more likely to die young from stress based disorders. Those who confront life with a smile and a nod, they live longer healthier lives.
So go out there, go out and be happy. Remember, the happier you are, the more it pisses off your haters, and the angrier they get, the more likely they are to pop a capillary. If you smile back in the face of a person who yells instead of giving them the satisfaction of seeing you cry or scream, then you're getting the last laugh.
As a certain purple equine once said, "I'm gonna love and tolerate the shit out of you"
The first and biggest one is that I had no clue a year ago where I'd be today. On December 1st 2010 I officially came out of the closet about wanting a gender change, now just over a year later I'm still not on proper hormones yet because of financial problems, but even without them I've been enjoying myself and living reasonably well.
When I came out and when I stopped being Daniel and started being Tanya I had to change nearly everyone I associated with because of how many had negative, unkind, or in some rare cases, violent reactions. A year hence I'm unemployed, taking care of my sick mother, and trying my best to not let my relationship with my boyfriend crumble.
But, despite all that, I wouldn't change a single thing. I'd leave it all like it is if I could go back because I know I'm stronger for it. All of those pains I've gone through and I'm still going through have made me a much more durable person.
This post is for all of my LBGT friends. It's a damned tough road for a transgender, but I want to tell you all this right now; Whether you're M -> F or F -> M or one of the very few who's a hermaphrodite. I want you to know that that pain, that suffering, that hell you go through to stand up and be who you are, that's what historians will remember about you. Through history, it's always the oppressed who are remembered, and those who stood up against oppression and said NO.
I'm not gonna say you should rub it in people's faces, because that's sinking to their level. What I'm saying is you should stand up and be proud. You should keep going no matter what. If somebody says harsh words, grin right in their scowling face. If somebody says "You'll never make it." give them a smirk and reply, "Watch me."
Just remember this, those who don't understand, those who don't appreciate your struggle, they're humans too. We all are. If you're atheist, and they say you're going to hell and they're going to heaven, just smile and nod, you know they'll be proven wrong. If you're religious, and they say you're a horrible person for being gay, just smile and nod, you know they'll be called on their hatred and ignorance once they reach the other side. Death is the final decision maker for all of us, no matter what we believe or don't believe in, so let him deal with taking care of those annoyances, you'll just stress yourself out by raging back at them. And those who stress, and yell, and rage; Those who view the world through hate filled eyes, they're far more likely to die young from stress based disorders. Those who confront life with a smile and a nod, they live longer healthier lives.
So go out there, go out and be happy. Remember, the happier you are, the more it pisses off your haters, and the angrier they get, the more likely they are to pop a capillary. If you smile back in the face of a person who yells instead of giving them the satisfaction of seeing you cry or scream, then you're getting the last laugh.
As a certain purple equine once said, "I'm gonna love and tolerate the shit out of you"
Definitely agree with what you say here, it's better to tolerate someone than to allow yourself to react negatively.
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